I only check my weight when I absolutely need to, for record purposes. I'm trying to congratulate myself based on my healthier lifestyle choices, as opposed to based on whether I've lost weight. That said, it is worth celebrating when someone has reached their goals. The thing is, not everyone can. Also, as I understand addictions (like when I used to be a smoker), part of recovery is, in fact, relapse. Using relapse as an excuse to remain in an unhealthy state wasn't productive either. It took me so many times to quit smoking, from 2004 to 2020. So far, I've quit smoking for good - or at least as my new coping mechanisms work for all of my disorders (comorbidity; dual diagnoses, as it relates to smoking cessation). In a similar vein, I'm now tackling my dietary habits (not enough to call it an addiction or ED at all, according to my psychotherapist, who treats ED and asserts I don't have one). I'm looking at the benefits of eating healthier, as opposed to a target weight goal. This is especially important for me, but it may NOT work for other people (so don't try this on your own; as your treatment team first). When I focus on a healthier lifestyle, I realize that I lose weight without trying, and without all the back-and-forth thoughts regarding my fluctuating weight. My weight fluctuates too much within a day, due to my retaining of water, my CFS/ME, my IBS, my other physiological disorders, possibly my thyroid, possibly pre-menopausal state, and my DID/PTSD combo. So, I do what I can to manage a healthy lifestyle through managing my disorders that are scientifically connected to weight management.

I've had some bad days where I'd feel bloated, distended, full, ashamed of my appearances, and ashamed of my obesity or overweight status; but those days are not based on weight amount anymore. I feel better avoiding the scale as much as possible (even though I can see the benefit for some other people who need to monitor their weight, such as for certain jobs that require weigh-ins, or for certain disorders).