I found someone else who left and returned and they are being treated the same way. I'm thinking it's not me personally, it's just the culture of this particular community. Which, I don't really get. Of course, I have had a lot of toxic relationships and friendships, people have done smear campaigns on me and ruined my reputation. So it might be I just have a destroyed reputation as well. It's really tough when people spread lies and misinformation about you to paint you out like you're the villain when it was actually the other way around. No one ever asks for my side of things.

All I know, is that I know the truth of things that happened between me and others on there. I guess all I can cling to is my personal truth. I don't want to go out of my way having to prove myself or try to make people see me in a different light. I don't have the energy or motivation. I understand we can't control how other people perceive us or whether or not we are accepted. And I can't stop the people on there who warn people about me and make me out to be this horrible bad abusive person when I'm not. It's just one of those unfair things about life.