Woke up and was unable to breath! I had a terrifying nightmare about my " Uncle" Its been maybe a year since I had one this bad. I came rushing out of the bedroom and telling Steve I need a hug like I desperately needed one. I was already in tears and I still break down in tears.. I HATEEEEEE this! He's been dead for decades but this happens and I wish I could bring him back to life so I could kill him.

I'm trying really hard to shake this off.. Dammit