I am extremely tense. I very nearly yelled at my son earlier because he put his food on top of my new cast iron griddle (I haven’t seasoned it yet) instead of moving it first. I was outraged because he is always so inconsiderate and unaware of his environment. I really had to hold myself back. Earlier I got so agitated waiting in line at the grocery store. I only had four items but it’s a small store with no express so I was basically trying not to burn a hole in the guy in front of me’s head. I was gripping my wallet so tightly. I felt like I was going to cry. It was just a quick in and out ffs!

I made a turkey meatloaf for dinner and nearly lost it then too. So many things going wrong. Somehow there was plastic in our brand new oven that I did not see, but it doesn’t make sense because I did what the manual said and ran the oven at 375 for a half hour in the morning before starting on dinner in the afternoon. Nothing melted or smoked then but as the oven was heating for dinner smoke started pouring out with fumes.

RS fixed it all so I could complete dinner, I tried to wash silverware but I kept dropping it, I guess because I was so tense I was moving too fast.

We took my son out for trick or treating. We were out for a little over an hour and the weather is perfect so it was nice to get a walk in to help me calm down. I need to take a shower and hopefully that will further relax me.