Thank you for your kind words all.
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hvert you hit the nail on the head, we are in agreement that I probably need to build my muscle of working and working with difficult people! Thank you for your supportive comments.
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bizi thank you for your kind words!
All: I noticed a lot of people here coming to my defense re: what my therapist said about that guy. I know you guys are trying to help. But I'm finding it overwhelming and triggering. I think my therapist is great. She's helped me a lot and we have a good working relationship and I respect her and I'm planning on continuing to see her. She's not perfect. I think...if she can admit, just like I've admitted that I could be wrong, that she could be wrong herself, then I feel good. Its entirely possible that her own perception has gotten in the way. I asked directly, by the way, what she thought. That doesn't mean she is right or that...I have to sit and take her perception as fact. No, its not a helpful view to me, and yes it caused me to feel bad. I will talk to her more when I see her. I just don't want people to bash her. It doesn't help me to see that though I know you guys are trying to help.

Honestly she would probably agree with hvert's ending paragraph, too. I guess I will talk to her when I see her this week. You all aren't completely off base - but maybe she has a blind spot. Doesn't make it helpful to me. And maybe I'm triggered bc I feel what you guys said was true and I literally cannot deal. But when we literally can't deal...I think that means we need to step away so I guess that is how I will end it. My therapist and I may talk about our relationship, at my request, when I see her. It might be hard bc I tend to kow tow to her when there is conflict. I will try. Last words: I've had worse therapists than her. Much. I've also had better / ones I've more preferred, but I really like her too.