Good for you, Deilla. You've done some self-care and managed to help yourself a bit. That's a lot to manage when you're so low. Sometimes there isn't anyone to care for us when we most need to be cared for. All we have is ourself. You did very good today being a friend to yourself. I hope you find some compassion from others that you fully deserve, just because you're human and you're hurting. People can be so dense at times and so slow to grasp that someone is struggling. If avoiding some people seems safer for you, then go ahead and do that. But don't accept other's negative judgements of you. What others think may say more about them than about you. Plenty of humans who were monsters managed to have lots of friends and popularity.

I gained weight recently, myself, and got discouraged about it. I find it hard to live up to standards I wish I could reach. Sometimes we have to cut ourselves some slack and give ourselves a break. ((((Hugs))))