Hi Delia,

You are a kind soul with many attributes. I read your comments about others with a smile. You have a heart and compassion for those who suffer as well. I enjoy reading your posts supporting and encouraging others. You are not alone here. I am alone too with a dysfunctional family.

My mother yaps her yapper more than I can say one word or two, then she continues yapping more than listening. She enjoys yapping away and at times yaps for about an hour or two while I say about one or two words such as uh huh, ok, hmmm... She is nuttier than a nut bar, but she is my mom. My brother has no time to talk with me and when he does he acts like I'm wasting his time. My father is always giving the phone to my mom and, well, then she yaps away. I have to literally shout and interject my comments once in a while to tell her I'm tired of her yapping for now.

Loneliness caused me to seek abusive men. I finally got a handle on it now. I keep myself so busy that all I can do is think of work, sleep, and chores now. Being busy works wonders for me. However, honestly, sometimes I feel stressed out!!! I want to kick my life to the curb and say- No MORE!! But, I need to eat so I keep working and staying busy.

Thus, Delia, we are in the same situation of having a family that is not really supportive and suffering from loneliness. I try to make lemonade out of lemons. I tried to make friends with others, but at my age, nobody needs my friendship. I am better off alone and doing my things, I found out. I don't feel sad or bitter about it. I feel fine and am happy to have had the experiences I had to make me who I am today. Thus, please think about the good things in your life, cherish them, and focus on them. You have cats. I wish I did also but am too lazy to care for them. Cats are furry friends. I have really nobody here. No furry friends- nobody! Please take care, Delia!