I talked with the PDOC..

I straight up mentioned things about Western/Eastern society/culture, philosophical thoughts, shamanism, delusion of eternity, religion/science, the world ending and crazy people on social media, my lack of confidence and motivation to make decisions, ...

I was very honest... That I abused the dexes a little, take phenibut and get dysphoric from alcohol, the DP/DR.. I mentioned a lot of things and he said that I'm a really deep thinker - That I'm doing really good even though I have bad days of low mood etc..

He says that my mind is good - And that I should get help to leaning towards not having an illness but something good based on the many times that I've seen him. I know that it's been a long, stretched out spiritual awakening from being atheist, then psychedelic trip, then pantheist/panentheist. I mentioned the crypto, investing, meditation, Buddhism, reading about fasting and gaining weight with olanzepine, neuroscience, pharmacology and interested in psychoactive chems, neuroplasticity.. + Podcasts - Especially listening to Duncan Trussell and his creativity and wondering how he never goes psychotic.

I said that there's a lot of disconnected information in my head and I just pick and choose - Or taking each day to think about some things and other days about other things in a many day/week cycle..

I said that I'm really hard on myself but he says that I'm being responsible by working on myself and level headed etc.. I said, "Western psychiatrists try to mold their patients minds to what is accepted by culture" (An Alan Watts quote).

I told him about the vacation, that I had a good time.. He refilled meds and now I go back to my life....... He said that I'm doing well even by Western standards which is cool...

I don't mean to relate this to anyone else here.. Just my personal journey idk not controverses... Any criticisms welcome.