aw pachy, i am sad to hear that you you also experienced some of the grief i am feeling, how you stated it is very succinct and truthful, it is a matter of survival for me also, its hard to say a final goodbye tho, i seem incapable of that one, so the cycle continues.. thanks for your kind words...

nightbird you've said exactly what i would want to say about this all, yes i do want to build a house of love and growth for myself, ty.. it matters so much that others can identify with me about this, you are right, i do want to affect my environment in a positive way and i can do that best by homing myself someplace positive for me, thanks again for your kind gracious words and blessings to you always, may you overcome the boulder in your life with the peace and dignity that surrounds you.. your story tells of overcoming and surviving and reaching brighter places in our lives, thank you for the inspiring words...

thank you pj56, its my deep belief that in the end we are all ok, me, you, everyone... its a struggle to get there sometimes, but we all deserve good happy lives dont we?

thank you gimmeice for all the good you do here for us at PC, the kind words and hugs do really matter so much, peace always be with you hon... may all your dreams come true

aw, DOWNINNATICK, it is a little upsetting as you can tell, i hope i didnt upset you too much, thank you for the hug and heart, thank you for caring.. i hope you are well tonight..