I'm terrible at recognizing mixed episodes but I think I'm in one right now.
Symptoms:
-Can't sleep. Want to OD on valium/oxy to get the good sleep, but yeah I'm averaging like 3 hours a night and I'm having nightmares about my last psychotic episode.
-Super irritable and agitated. Yesterday I screamed at the top of my lungs because a neurologist wouldn't make me an appointment and I threw a pill bottle at a window.
-ED has gotten worse. I ate very little for five days then since yesterday binged and purged several times. I want to take the scale and smash every mirror in the house with it.
-Hearing voices telling me to kill myself.
-Suicidal thoughts. I have a plan.
-Extremely anxious and jumpy. I started hyperventilating because the I can't think of the word for it but hte loud voice that says codes in the ER when I was there a few days ago
-Restless, revved up.

I mean writing it all out this sounds like mixed but I'm not having racing thoughts or feeling really speedy or impulsive. I'm supposed to get my injection today but I'm thinking of skipping because it doesn't do ****.