I have her blocked. It's a long story that I don't feel like rehashing, but she is the reason I've been seeing doctors, undergoing testing, and my primary care told me to seek therapy. Which I am. I talked to her about stress and anxiety being the possible cause of my symptoms and she believes it's possible after I spoke to her about this relationship and others involved.
Although I have her blocked and removed most of the mutual friends. I had to block someone because they reposted her passive aggressive post toward me. I had people delete me because she's spreading false things about me or painting herself as the victim. This was a very abusive, toxic relationship and no I'm not surprised this is happening, but how do I deal with this? There are some people who know the truth but still support and encourage her.
I recognize I have no control over what she does. I can't force people to see me in any kind of light. I don't have anything to prove. But how do I deal with and cope with someone who smears my reputation and name? Who spreads lies about me? I literally have 30+ screenshots of how she treated me. The moment I broke up with her I was in Urgent Care, hadn't slept for nearly 48 hours because I was so stressed and anxious with what she was putting me through. And she was there laughing at me and taunting me while knowing I was in urgent care. That was the moment I said we were over and cut ties.
I have friends in this community. I don't want to leave and lose my real friends. I feel like I deserve to be there as much as she, her toxic cronies and anyone else. I am sick of shrinking myself to make others comfortable. Yet at the same time, I have to put up with immature nonsense. I really don't know what to do or what is the best way to handle this. I don't want to participate in her ongoing drama by responding and giving her attention. Or any of her friends engaging in the same behavior. This is tough.
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