I feel ok today. When I woke up I felt decent. When I woke up some more I felt kinda blah but not as bad as yesterday. Then I drank my first peppermint mocha iced latte of the year and I felt better and more alert. So I went with my mom to Target. I like Jif to go crunchy peanut butter but it’s not easy to find. I saw that Target had 6 boxes. So I went to buy those and to check out the weights. I had planned on buying all 6 boxes but they only had 3. Dumb online store inventory. So I got all the remaining boxes. Now the online inventory is saying 3 boxes are left. Lol. The weights were super expensive so I didn’t buy any. but I picked up the last tube of shortbread cookie Burts Bees lip balm. I didn’t see the gingerbread one that I had also wanted the other day. I had my mom go to the dollar store while I waited in the car to buy me a bag of pads because I am spotting onto my underwear now. My doctor got back to me just now and says this is all normal and part of the healing process but not to do put anything in there and he’ll see me at my appointment. As much as they are uncomfortable physically and mentally for me I hope he actually does an internal exam this time instead of the basic BS external exam he did last time.

But yeah I’m doing good today. In the past peppermint mocha iced lattes or coffee have driven my anxiety up the wall unlike with any other flavor. but today I’m not feeling much anxiety. Besides the not wanting to go into the dollar store to buy period pads. Which I think is kinda understandable.

My weight is heading in the right direction and it’s making me super happy. 25 pounds since last Thanksgiving. I have 22 more to lose to get to my goal. I feel like I’m in a good place now with my meds and my therapist and my doctors especially this new one I saw on Monday.

I don’t feel the greatest but I don’t think it’s anything to worry about really. My temp is only 98.8. My brother is real bad off though and my mom isn’t doing too well. Yeah I know going to Target was not the most PC thing but I was feeling pretty well earlier.

My moms temp is normal though. So now I’m wondering if my temp is surgery related? Ugh what mess.