I was just laughing at this because it made me happy and smile. You're right. I spent about a month processing what happened to me and what she put me through. And I'm very ready to just move forward.

I'm actually finding other places on the internet that give me a sense of belonging, where I'm not entirely sure this other community is for me. I was thinking about it this morning. A place where, people who used to be friends put their heads in the sand while someone else with more power in the community trashes and abuses me. You know, they don't stick up for bullying there. They just pretend it's not happening but support the more popular person. For all I've done and given to this community over the years, and I mean...I've poured money into helping it and making a difference. And my time. These people could absolutely could care less about me. Some of them know about the abuse I went through and still support and call this person such a good amazing person while they talked to me in private about how awful it was but won't make a statement or stand.

This is not the kind of energy I vibe with. I vibe with justice, authenticity, and genuine kindness. I've found places, like here, I can just be myself and no one, no one harasses me. And it's such a different kind of experience than what I've had there. It makes me feel like there is something wrong with that community and perhaps not me. I'm spending more time in those places that make me feel happy.

I really hope she gets the help she needs and healing someday. I saw her post "all I want for Christmas is someone who won't leave." And I'm like...MAYBE if you stopped abusing people they would stop leaving? Go get help, darling.

I focus more on my journey and my healing. I love the changes I am witnessing within myself.