I went for two runs today starting at like 3am (I brought a headlamp this time) and did some sprinting and a lot of walking. Just trying to cope with the agitation really. The chlorpromazine is helping a little bit but I'm still definitely mixed. My gf wants me to go to the hospital. No way. The nurse tht did my injection made make anappointment with my therapist so I did that but that's next week. I really hate my therapist with such passion. I want to do such destructive things to myself. I haven't eaten anything today. I put an Ensure in the fridge for later if I don't want dinner. I can't wait for January to come so I can talk to the neurologist. I'm getting my Nexplanon removed in a couple weeks too, the gynecologist I saw yesterday was super nice. The roads were a little icy this morning.