Dear CinnamonSun,

I understand how you feel about your situation and having nobody there to support you. I think the best thing to do is to reach out to others in your area if possible. I'm not religious but churches can help if you want to meet people in your area. They offer meetings also. I was in a group of recent divorcees; this helped me to break my solitude and meet other people in the same situation as mine. You said you live in a rural area in NY. I think the churches are the best way then. They are free to attend and have other social activities. If this does not appeal to you, then you should look into volunteering. You can volunteer to help kids or tutor kids in your area. There must be some kind of billboard for volunteer activities in your area. If you don't feel like mingling, then don't. You like reading and writing as well. You can go to your local library and read books too for free. I think you can come up with something to do with your free time in your area. Best wishes!