I’m glad you stopped with all that laughing stuff after our first session. I think you realized that I am not the laughing type person and I prefer sessions to be more serious instead of goofing off. But I still like that you are not a robot and still show emotion at times.

As for my transference T I can’t remember the last time I legit dug myself into a deep depression over missing her. But it’s been since before my surgery. I don’t drink the blue fruit tea. I don’t eat the Aero mint bars despite having one left. I probably will eat and drink them again just because I like them. But I don’t know. I just don’t feel much anymore towards her. I told my Pdoc I had a new therapist Who I really liked. I have only seen that man change his tone of voice one time but when I said I really liked my new therapist I swear he looked sad. I think he wanted it to continue to work out between me and transference T. But he didn’t understand everything that was going on with her.

But yeah that was a really rough 9 or however many months and I truly didn’t think it would ever come to an the end but it finally did. I just had to have major surgery and remove my entire female reproductive system. But to be able to get rid of these feelings was worth it.