I just came in here to say that things are getting better. I am a lot more open to change now. I've been working on myself, I realize change first comes from within. So that's what I've been doing. I wouldn't say my situation has changed at all. But I am feeling a lot more positive and happier. I now believe and see the potential that change can happen externally too. More than anything, I want different experiences. I've been connecting in other online communities than where I was. And I'm finding doing this is rewarding and makes me happy. I'm more social with strangers when I go out, friendlier. I mean, not overboard, but appropriately so. I'll wave, smile, do small talk at the register. It's an improvement. I'm just waking up and realizing my life could be very different. I don't know how to implement that right now, but I feel it can be different and that's a start.

I'm still trying to figure out my professional calling that would actually make me happy. I haven't found one yet. But in the meantime, I'm just vibing and being kind, helping people when I feel moved to. Learning and exploring. I have a new mentality of being my own soulmate and enjoy having a relationship with myself and loving myself in the ways no one else could or is willing to. And that is really rewarding too. I've been having beautiful, soul-moving experiences. I'm just a lot happier. My life isn't ideal but it's not terrible. And I am good with that at this moment.