I should just say that my life is and has been good. Cuz why make it so complicated.

No one will figure it all out - Not for me. I won't.

RIP

Edit: "In short, Samatha meditation is focused on calming the mind, whilst Vipassana meditation is focused on insight or clearing the mind. For the purposes of most people seeking to get into meditation we consider Vipassana to be the meditation of choice that is going to deliver them the results they want."