Thanks! Yeah, lots of healing stuff going on, but it is VERY hard. I want to do it because I know that if I don't work on it, it will never get better and I will never feel any happiness.
I know that the guy can't get me tonight, but now he knows where I live and I know NOTHING about this guy except what he wrote in the letter.

I think my step-brother got the address from my step-dad, but I don't have proof of that. It just upsets me that he would have some stranger write to me like that. I understand he cares and just wants me to be happy, but he has no idea that this just brings back lots of feelings of being unsafe.

I do have a stuffed Garfield that was my moms and I have my BF's blanket, but I couldn't sleep, so I got back up and came here...hoping it helps.

I took my sleeping pills, but they are doing nothing tonight. My apartment is so small and I *know* that no one is here, but every noise makes me wake up. Every creak in the walls, every car that goes by, every tick of the clock....everything.

My BF is coming back on the 31st, but I won't feel safe til her is here....to help me.

Anyways...I am here....hanging out....going to try to help others since I can't help myself right now.

BJ