Am I regretting entering into this process? God... Now there's a question!! Wow. My first, instant reaction would be yes. Then they would change to no. And then it would probably change back to yes again. It really has been a rollercoaster. It still is a rollercoaster. Sadly I think it has made life more of a rollercoaster, for me. Hmmmm, actually, I'm not so sure that is true. Before all of this with you.... Life was actually quite settled. Think back to the beginning of the year.....

Why did we have to have a pandemic? Why did this have to happen now? We have had the most unsettled 18 months, and on the back of that you have had all this going on which made you unable to continue. I wish we had had more settled time. I wish we had had a more gentle end to this. Those months that you said we could have.

Ok. Deal time. I will keep going with Potential New T until the 23rd. I will take my time (I'm really not very good at that at all) and I will just see how this pans out in time. Maybe that's all I can do. Maybe that's all I need to do right now.

I love you T, and I hope that we can find a way. You said the door never closes. You said we will always find a way. You said that you are just over there.