You know how you said you "cured" my eating disorder by telling me to eat yogurt? Well, the nurse weighed me. I'm not cured, and she's quite worried. I still want the number to go down. I didn't eat anything yesterday or today so far. Before that I spent practically two whole days binging and purging. The nurse wants me to call the crisis line or go to the ER mostly because of the command hallucinations. I did set up an appointment with you. I'm not doing well, so I fully expect you to tell me to go to group to talk about things or go IP so you don't have to do your job.

I'm also probably in a mixed episode. Hopefully I won't be by the time of our appointment, but prep yourself just in case.

But please help me? I don't want to wind up IP again. I just need to figure out how to get over this block that keeps me from eating and figure out how to actually implement my coping skills instead of "I want to get high" or screaming and throwing ****.