I managed to sleep at 3:30 until 7:30. And thankfully the program did work so I was able to speak to my therapist. She reminded me of skills that I’d forgotten about, which is why I wanted to talk to her. I knew she’d have some suggestions. She reminded me of ice which I’ve done before and I’m not sure it really works but I’ll try it again. She suggested if it does work to take some cheap ice packs to work or bottles of water and leave them in the freezer. If anyone asks I’ll just say my hand/wrist hurts. She said get something strong tasting too but I don’t like altoids and I don’t like sugary candy so I’ll have to check out the sugar free aisle at the drugstore.

At least it’s something. I was in an absolute panic this AM and I couldn’t find my Xanax anywhere. Now that I’m thinking about it I think I put it in the bag I took to my SIL’s with my things I needed to get ready for the wedding. I’ll check in a little while, I’m still very anxious but not as much as I was.