Well she did make a fuss but she took me and we both went and got tested at the same place my brother in law took my nephew to last Friday and they got same day results and fairly quickly. It’s actually where I went for my preop Covid test and I went late in the afternoon and had the results early the next morning. So I do expect to have them today. But now I just have to try and relax and wait. I’m in bed under my blankets and I’m about to turn on the TV. I also found once again a bunch of dark blood on the toilet paper this morning which my doctor says is all normal. Yeah 5 weeks after surgery and still bleeding like this is considered normal? I just feel like complete crap today.

I’m trying to watch that show I Am Jazz and it’s just a bit triggering when they talk about the whole trans people getting murdered stuff. I know I don’t put myself out there on YouTube and I know I’m not out seeking a relationship and I know I pass as a guy so I guess I don’t have to necessarily worry as much as some other trans individuals do but when I’m at a gas station and a bunch of truckers come in and even though they are wearing jeans and hoodies and baseball hats like I am I usually just hurry up and leave even though they don’t pay attention to me. It’s just something I worry about and I worry about going back to work as well.