I stopped dating about three months ago and feel great! I am really busy now and am doing better than before. I don't know my reasons to pursue abusive men, but I was attracted to them. Now, I'm busy with work and thinking about pursuing a grad degree. I feel good about myself again. I wasted my time and energy with men who could care less about me. What a waste of my life! But, now, I feel productive. My pursuit of writing well is a challenge for me. It is a time-consuming and productive goal. I will keep doing my best to learn how to write well until I can write professionally. I am writing this to tell others not to waste time on people who don't care about you, instead focus on yourself. I finally did after people kept telling me to do so. Thank you!