I am synthesizing hypomania in my mind.. My memory is calculating with the dopamine, serotonin etc.. BUT.. I have to keep learning etc and keep down-low incognito - To use my unhappy state as a receiver of knowledge in order to make my future nirvana stronger - To have a more focused, stronger and more resistant mania.

I've been very euphoric once upon a time.. And they all hated me for it! "How can you be like this? You HAVE to be like US!" - And they were right.. But at some point, a pandemic happens right when you figure **** out, the corruption and control seeps through. So it's not just my mom controlling me now, but also the whole world.

So I will do an Ne/Extroverted Intuition examination of the world and seek to magnify my consciousness from within like a virus that just won't give up..