off topic, I'm pretty sure that Papa bear (my husband) is ''high functioning'' ASD. He doesn't have depression and doesn't want to consult a professional (I have not had good experiences with multiple professionals I've consulted for depression etc...) (sorry this isn't helpful, hospitals also completely freak me out although I have had suicidal ideation and even intent I've stayed away from that )

I hope the ECT goes well for you!

I feel like deleting this post (sense of deja vu .... )