To current T: the age thing is really confusing to me. I feel like if I develop feelings for you I will be very confused since I’ve never had feelings ever in my life for someone my own age. I feel like if you were a guy and my own age things would be different. And I don’t know who to talk to about this because I don’t want you to think I have crush on you because I don’t. At least not now. But I want you to know that my crushes are on women. Although sometimes I am intrigued by trans men but it’s not sexual. It’s just confusing sometimes being a trans man and liking women. Because then does that make me straight or not. But then if I do end up liking you you’d be the first person my own age I’d ever have crush on and man I’m just super confused. So if you were a cis dude especially a cis dude my own age there wouldn’t be an issue.

And that’s kinda one of the reasons my mom and I agreed to go to every other week. Although she doesn’t know that one of the reasons is that I am just super weirded out by this age thing.