@Have Hope. Something is off. That is why I am so concerned. I am keeping an eye. Do I call CPS if things get really bad? I am considering it. I feel within myself passionate to protect these girls. I don't want them to be abused and neglected the way I have been. It would not be fair at all. I've spent most of my life in and out of therapy trying to heal from the damage of my parents. I strongly want to protect them from harm. I used to say if I ever became a parent myself, I wouldn't want my parents around my children because I don't want them to hurt my children in the same ways they have wounded me. I don't know why they are doing this to them. Of course, I never understood why they did the things to me, either.

@mote of soul. I will watch over them while they are here. Christmas for me, I love the spirit of love and joy. Winter is beautiful. It's the spirit behind loving others and giving and spreading kindness that I am in love with. That is the magic of it for me. I hope to learn how their cultures celebrate this. That is another thing I am alarmed about all this. My dad is very condescending to them about their countries. He keeps reminding them that a certain ethnicity is superior. The thing is, we have that in our heritage but he doesn't even practice that religion or live within the culture. So I'm so confused by his behavior and him constantly reminding them how our heritage is better than theirs. That is not what you do when you are hosting people from other countries or cultures. It is so embarrassing for me.