someone asked me today why I'm not going to see my parents on christmas

bare in mind, this person knows the situation and that they arn't allowed to be near me because of the abuse they inflicted

I said well, you know why. I all ready told you before

and then she's like well.. if you could see them for christmas, would you?
uh... no. I wouldn't. after what they have done to me

I think she meant somethingl ike, if you had family who loved you and apreciated you, would you see them?

but it didn't feel like that. it felt like saying well... you choose not to se them, and you choose to be lonely.
no, I choose to follow the rules of the court, and I choose not to be abused

it really frustrated me today