I don’t feel as roid rageish as I did yesterday afternoon. Yeah those last few hours before getting my testosterone shot and then the night of are pretty tough. But it’s been way better overall since the surgery. I have a new favorite song called The Freshmen by Verve Pipe. I don’t recommend listening to it or even googling the lyrics if your triggered easily since the topic is about pretty heavy stuff. But I like the quote that goes the song just really resonates with me in so many ways. Like I just find it so relatable.

Anyways today I’m just trying to figure out money issues while also trying to plan for 2 trips this month that are going to cost money I don’t really have. Luckily the hotels are paid for already and my mom will probably pay for meals. I should just turn on the TV and try to distract myself a bit from my money issues and what else I have going on.



My therapist who is the same age as me looks and dresses likes she’s 40 and is a parent and I currently look and am dressed like a high school stoner from the 90’s. I just can’t relate to her despite our age. But I’d rather look like me then her to be honest. And I mean in terms of our body shape and weight. Like I’m glad my shots are doing what they should be doing. Although I wouldn’t necessarily leave my house dressed this way.

Edit: Actually now it’s working quite well.