Highly irritable today. I didn’t sleep the best last night, once I finally fell asleep. I took my seroquel to help me sleep but I don’t think it managed to do that. It’s always a race against the clock with night meds so I don’t get into the uncomfortable uneasy space. Sadly I didn’t beat it last night. I am ok now, but in the moment I said to myself “NO more meds. Just don’t go through this anymore.”. I know that isn’t the answer, but it is something I am kind of stuck on, still. I don’t want to give up something that’s incredible for me 95% of the time.

I’ve always hated Sundays. I don’t know why, but I’ve always been like that. This week is packed just like last week. Same order too – hopefully it goes well. I swear if my psychiatrist doesn’t show up I will literally scream. Lol.

I’m fighting a lot of negative feelings these days. I hope I can find ways to quell the emotion inside.