I'm so sorry you're having such anxiety, Christina. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make your anxiety go away. As for "tools" - I wish I could help with ideas. The only thing that helps me somewhat with anxiety (besides meds) is to use breathing practices. There are so many, but the one that helps me most is to take a great, big deep belly breath, hold it for a few seconds, then slowly let it out. 2 or 3 times of that usually calms me. And it's important to have your body relaxed (shoulders down, etc) when you do the breathing.