At least you admit that you are very boundaried. And at least you see that maybe some form of negotiation is ok here. Maybe we continue talking about that next week. I certainly do feel a little more settled believing that Ex T hasn't disappeared completely from my life, and maybe that is enough for me to feel like I can do this work with you, rather than just running out and replacing her. Maybe. It still doesn't feel all warm and squishy. Not sure you will ever feel all warm and squishy. Not sure if warm and squishy is what I need, especially going forwards.

I certainly need to grieve for that. I need to grieve for the fact that I feel this huge burden of life has now been put solely on me.

Yes, I get that that is the aim long term. For sure. I get that, but don't make it happen overnight. If it could happen safely overnight just by losing a therapist then there wouldn't be many therapists in business would there!! It takes time. It takes time and.... I don't know, your the expert... You tell me what it takes... Just don't expect it to happen overnight just because my initial support it lost.

I feel like I need an interim replacing of that. And I kind of would like that to be you, I think, just because I reckon you might be good for me long term. Please help me to find a way to 'bridge the gap' so to speak.