dear soupe,
Keep your appointment.lean on her or him to help you. or write in a journal then bring it is to show them It could be very cathartic.
Do you have a job, couldn't quite tell in your writings.
I am sorry it is so hard.

this transition is the toughest one you will make.
Do some more baking.the smell of cookies can make it feel more home like. Do have a cubbie hole where you can make it your place to write read or what ever.
self sooth, nurture your self.
go to a coffee shop and just sit and be with people, so you don't feel so isolated.
((((((HUGS))))))
bizi