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I just want to go home, but I'm already home
I remember being at work, or somewhere else, and thinking over and over again that “I just want to go home. I just want to go home.” The hours seemed like days. I’d watch the clock, and it would seem to have stopped. Two minutes before I was officially to be set free, I’d run around the corner and make an escape. I knew that those last two minutes would just kill me, so I had to make the run for it while I could still breathe.
There eventually came a time when I stumbled on that run home, and found myself in a full body cast. Then the only place I could even be is confined at home, in my bed. Years passed in that cast and I again began to feel trapped. Out of old habit I’d repeat silently to myself that “I just want to go home. I just want to go home.” But...I was home. Where must I go? How do I find "IT"?
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@ Soupe du jour
This is interesting to me. You just want to "get home" even when you are already home. I go back and forth between wanting to be home and wanting to be out. It's a balance I guess. But the feeling of always wanting to be where you are not is not a good one. I've had a time when I was younger - 21 or so- when I left work at lunch and went to the mall (just down the street from the factory) and just ate my lunch in the middle of the mall and revelled in the idea that nobody knew where I was! This was before cell phones and I didn't have a pager. Anyway, I don't know if that exactly relates to what you're talking about but it made me think of it.
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