Dear New T,

Ok, so, taking it through with R this evening and maybe what I need is to pay you for half an hour of your time on a Thursday, so that I know when you will reply to any emails I send. And if I don't email, then it will be up to you whether to charge me or not. I think I might be able to trust you not to be greedy, but to only charge me if you felt that time was then wasted.

That way I know when you will reply. Consistency. Understanding. Safety. And it would give me the days to write about whatever I wanted to write about.

That feels better than needing two sessions a week. I prefer the longer time we have anyway, it works better for me. For sure.

I think that could be a good compromise? Negotiation.

Oh, and I was flabbergasted that you weren't horrified about the idea of Ex T and I starting in touch. WTF??? How can someone so boundaried not be outraged at the idea of that??

I think you even said you were glad that she text me on my birthday?!?! I need to ask you more about that.

Thanks for accepting me talking to you with my back to you today, while looking out of the window standing up. Thanks for not batting an eyelid about me being on the floor hiding behind the table. I hope you were asking them to clean the floor though, when we left... It really was filthy.

See you next week.