Hugs bluebird, sorry not to comment earlier, I was working late. If you’re feeling things and seeing images but don’t want to do the thing one of the key things is realizing you’re actually ok. For me I don’t get strong visuals because I’ve banned gore from my life so my brain doesn’t have the imagery. I can’t control what comes out but I can control what goes into my brain 🧠. That being said I do get the thoughts, usually involving the garbage disposal or a car wreck or something else. I choose to see it as a protective response. My brain is showing me what will happen because it wants me to be more careful and not to do the bad thing, not the other way around.