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Old Nov 09, 2021, 11:18 AM
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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic View Post
Hugs bluebird, sorry not to comment earlier, I was working late. If you’re feeling things and seeing images but don’t want to do the thing one of the key things is realizing you’re actually ok. For me I don’t get strong visuals because I’ve banned gore from my life so my brain doesn’t have the imagery. I can’t control what comes out but I can control what goes into my brain 🧠. That being said I do get the thoughts, usually involving the garbage disposal or a car wreck or something else. I choose to see it as a protective response. My brain is showing me what will happen because it wants me to be more careful and not to do the bad thing, not the other way around.
Thank you! That makes sense. I do happen to watch a lot of stuff with gory content. I don’t know if I can ban those from my life because I love horror movies but I can definitely work on how I see it and see it more as a protective response. That does make sense because it’s always things I really don’t want to think/see that come into my mind, so I could make sure I’m more careful. It often seems to be an
Possible trigger:
so I feel extra cautious around knifes because I’m afraid I’ll suddenly do something, and it’s definitely something I don’t want to do l, even though I do once in awhile have sui thoughts, I still don’t really truly want to hurt myself. It’s just I get scared I’ll go into the kitchen and do that impulsively so my brain makes me see it over and over again. I stay out of the kitchen when I’m feeling like that
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