I have not taken meds in a long time... I have not been to a psychiatrist in ages....
I don't like how I feel on mood stabilizers so usually I only go on when I get desperate... was feeling very elated to be alive last night - so actually wanted to stay up to feel that way. Was diagnosed with bp 2 awhile ago, but have been stable for awhile... I do like the feeling of elation I get, feel like have been smoking pot. I just don't want my disability to have mental health in addition to physical - the insurance doesn't need to know. Just not sure If I can avoid going off the rails.