I’m kinda anxious and tired and cold today I can guess why I slept basically though the night but fitfully. After 1:30 I was up every 5 to 20 minutes at a time until I woke up for good around 5. But I managed to take a shower at my normal time and eat breakfast at 6:30. So I’m hopefully back on track with my intermittent fasting. But yeah today I’m just kinda I had a couple pumpkin English muffins for breakfast. My bleeding came back for the first time in a few days this is also the first time I’ve had pain in a few days too. I haven’t done anything I shouldn’t have done. I didn’t even sleep in jeans last night.

I think I’ll get a chicken noodle soup bread bowl from Panera. I don’t really want all that sodium and carbs but I’m so cold and anxious I could just really use the comfort food right now and I can fit it into my diet pretty easily. Plus I don’t feel like eating a ton of little things anyways to get to my goal today so if I can eat 3 decent meals and no snacks then it’s less work. Sometimes I’m just too lazy to eat.

I’m wearing old spice deodorant and it reminds me of my dad. I always liked it way better then my moms perfume. Same way I liked watching my dad shave more then I liked watching my mom put on perfume. I didn’t even know how makeup really worked until I started watching RuPauls Drag Race in 2017. I didn’t know you had to like blend it together. I also remember being super jealous when I was 5 that boys got to go to to the bathroom standing up. I even tried it one time but it didn’t go exactly the way I had planned.