I've been in IOP since September 9th so about 2 months. I had a really great T who I attached to in those two months (we mostly met twice a week). But she had to leave to go on medical leave for six weeks. So we had our termination session yesterday. I cried afterward. But I told her I wouldn't self harm for 30 days as a way to honor our work together. I feel proud of that but also kind of scared. I know I can do it because I have done it before. But I just also feel like, why did I say that?!!