My endocrinologist called back. He wants to see me earlier then February. He wants to see me on December 11th. But he told me to go ahead with the blood work so I went and did that this afternoon. If he sees anything he’ll call and schedule me before December. I then called my Pdoc and told him my therapist wanted me to talk to him because my anxiety was really bad. I didn’t mention the Valium but I asked if he’d prescribe me visteril again. It’s not the greatest and it doesn’t exactly work well with weight loss. It doesn’t cause weight gain but it’s basically impossible to lose weight on it no matter how hard you try. Getting off it last December is actually what jumpstarted my weight loss. But it works well in addition to a benzo. So the receptionist will talk to him and see what he can do. So I don’t know. I just took my Geodon 20 with my topamax and an Atkins shake and my anxiety is still super high. Like the meds just went right through me. I’ve had zero caffeine today. I’m wondering if Atkins shakes can mess with your meds or something. I’ve been drinking a lot of them almost every day. Or if it really is just situational anxiety. I have my last post op appointment with my gynecologist tomorrow. Then my trip next week. Then I’m going out of town for Thanksgiving after that. So I could just be super nervous about all that. Part of me just thinks I need a burger and fries from Five Guys to feel better and give all this strict dieting a break. I don’t know. I’m confused.