I’m listening to the song Come To My Window and I like the part that goes “keeping my eyes open I cannot afford to sleep, giving away promises I know that I can’t keep.” It reminds me of myself and my life.

I guess I feel physically better and probably mental health wise without all those sleep meds in my system but I’m still not sleeping. Maybe my mom will switch beds with me again. My sleep issues seemed to get bad once I got her memory foam mattress a few months ago.

I think I’ll drink a protein shake. If I can’t sleep in an hour I’ll turn on the TV.

Yesterday afternoon I had a couple cans of Thums Up cola which is like the India version of Coke but that’s the only caffeine I had all day. I got rid of most my soda but I left a few cans of unique hard to find stuff.

I just had a cake batter Premier Protein shake and I feel better since I went to bed without dinner but I’m still not sure I can go back to sleep. I’ve been trying though.