Well I saw my gynecologist. He is this old guy. He has great bed side manner but the way he talks can be a bit odd at times. Like he talks to me like we are just guy buddies or something. So he’s totally accepting that I’m trans but he like calls the nurses “the girls” Which I mean I guess whatever. But anyways the nurse checked my weight and I had gone down. I was wearing my heavy boots and a big hoodie. Then she asked the basic med questions and symptom questions. I mentioned the pain and bleeding. The doctor came in and said he was going to do an internal. Which I was glad. That’s when he made the “ill be back with one of the girls” comment. So I took off my jeans and boots. And they came back. The internal hurt but I’m super sensitive in general in that area. He said I’m healing ok but I’m not completely healed. Typically people who have hysterectomies are completely healed after 6 weeks. I was honest with him and I told him I had not exactly been careful. He said to not doing anything for another 2 week and if the bleeding continues for another month to call back but if everything is ok then I don’t have to see him for a year. I asked him if the hysterectomy could be contributing to my mood issues I’ve been having recently and he said that he took out everything that would cause any female emotions. So it’s not like PMS or anything like that. So he agreed with me that it’s probably likely that I need an increase in my testosterone as a result of the hysterectomy and not having any estrogen anymore. So I’m hoping to hear from my endocrinologist today about my blood work to see what can be done. But I actually feel quite a bit better after getting the gynecologist over with. I didn’t realize how much it was stressing me out. And he was super nice today. As weird and expensive as my therapist is I set up an extra session with her tomorrow at 11. Things are just so out of whack I’m not sure how to make it through the weekend without as much support as I can get right now. Saturdays when I get my weekly injections can be very bad with the thoughts I get. Support on a friday would be very good.