Well yeah the switch flipped back. Miserable today. Not as bad as on Monday, honestly it feels like typical PMS, but still.

Because of things that are happening at work I was FURIOUS on the drive home. I spent the time taking deep breaths so that I wouldn’t be a ***** by the time I got home. It worked, I was calmer. I told RS I did not want to talk about my day because I had just calmed down and it would just push my anger back up.

We went to dinner at the little Italian place we go to and I got more and more annoyed because the food took FOREVER and there was only one other person there. However I tried to remember that they also do take out orders from the pizza shop side and that there may be a cook shortage in the kitchen, who knows. But on the drive home every little sound my boys made grated my nerves so I’ve just immediately changed into my PJs and come into the bedroom to be alone so I don’t snap at anyone for small things.

Have my pdoc on Wednesday, it will be hard to distinguish hormonal issues from actual mood symptoms at that point but I can safely say that something is definitely off because it’s been alllll month long, since the Monday after the wedding that I’ve been out of sorts to varying degrees of intensity on both poles.

Honestly the only thing to do is raise the seroquel XR but I’m on a low dose so that’s fine, it’s the best med I’ve been on in awhile and worked quickly when I started it in the summer.

Ugh one more day of work and then finally the weekend, though it will be much colder than the mild week we had. I’m also irritated that next week on Friday all the teachers will be at a special ed convention, probably admin too, but on our calendar it says staff in-service. We used to have that as a paid day off but not last year since they didn’t hold the convention. But they are this year so whyyyyy do we have to go in??? There’s probably going to be either a fat load of nothing to do or pointless time-wasting meetings just to make us be present. If there’s nothing I’m going to bring my headphones and do what I would have at home, aka watch tv/movies and read.