Absolutely NEVER AGAIN. Latuda has no place in my life. I spent 5 hours in the worst state of my life and I won't risk it again. I've worked around the "issue" enough and I just can't. I missed my dose last night and though maybe the symptoms I have when I take it in the daytime wouldn't be so bad now. that "unease". I took it and I was delusional, emotionally everywhere and never feeling relief from anxiety , the crying, the screaming, the turmoil. Today was far worse than any other time I've been awake to experience the reaction. I'm sure my stress has a lot to do with how bad it was today, but I cannot risk being in that state again. I literally thought it would never end. Talking about it, writing it out... none of it encapsulates how awful it was. I was afraid if I slept I would die. I thought my medicines were poison. I thought a lot of crazy things and it really shook me up.


I am OK now. Actually, I feel great (which is why I kept myself on the medicine). Someone has to make time to help me figure this out. I won't complain about healthcare of professionals -- we have a shortage and I know how time is... but this really needs help because I can't suffer much longer like this.


I will call my psychiatrist tomorrow and ask for advice, but that medicine is not going into my body ever again. I did my best to make it work for as long as it did. I can't fight it anymore. I really gave it a valiant effort, and chronicled it here. You all know how much I tried to make it work.