Dear T,

I tell you pretty much everything via the emails you allow me to send to you. But sometimes I feel bad because I send you a lot of emails, and I know they take time for you to read them, and yet I feel guilty that you don't charge me extra for that. So now I'm trying to be cognizant about not sending too many emails, but I also don't want you to think that I'm shying away from you either. I'll probably discuss these feelings with you at some point in our online sessions.

Also, I still feel scared about saying something that came out wrong in session, or embarrassed by what I said in session, or like I didn't complete my thoughts fully in session, so I tend to worry about what you think of me after every session - still. But, I've not been afraid anymore about you leaving us or quitting on us. You've helped us to feel more secure by allowing us to express all these feelings repeatedly last year. This year, we're learning to build trust more with you, and then in turn learning from our relationship so that perhaps we can take those healthy experiences and see how they fare in real life.

There's also times when I wanted to say something in session, but I forgot. And then I'll remember like months later, LOL. Talk about dissociation, or just being sidetracked. But still, those things still linger, so we will eventually discuss them.

I felt really supported today! I had already emailed you about this, but it helped me to cope better with the nightmare.

Another thing is that I worry about how my expressing any of my traumas, or my alters expressing any of their traumas, will cause you to experience vicarious trauma of your own. We don't want you to get hurt or affected by listening to our traumas. We worry about that, too. But we expressed that in an email, so we plan to discuss that with you next week.