I had that dreaded deflated balloon mood Thursday and yesterday, the kind I mentioned before where I’m not sure if I’m doing the right thing after getting something I wanted a lot. But I know I’m being ridiculous. It will be hard, but worth it - I only realised today I had anxiety, albeit a bit different, around seeing you before - but it has disappeared over time. I’m not going to give up on this new venture, either! I actually felt positive and serene about it today. I know the place most of these feelings come from, which helped with the self soothing and reassurance.