There was a lot of lying going on. I admit it. I lied about things and went along with suggested issues that were not a problem for me. Why did I do this? Out of desperation. I needed answers, but all I got was a BPD diagnosis that I readily fed.
I wasn't raised to lie. It felt awful and fed my desperation and suicidal thoughts. It caused a lot of grief to innocent people especially my family. There is no way I can take back what I did. The only way I can make it better is to get my records corrected. Will this make my apology feel more genuine?
No action and words can convey the profound remorse I feel.