a lot of times too, I know I've done it

it's not like a trigger that sets it off and I don't know about it

sometimes if I'm feelig mannic, it is. but sometimes, (most of the time), it's like I did it on purpose

but I really don't want too.. after I've looked back on what I've laughed at I'm like wow. why did I laugh at that. it's not funny at all